Feral
My mum used to come into my room and say Your room smells like a feral animal on heat
How do you even know the smell of the heat
When I got kicked out because she found out that I was taking birth control I used to stay at my then boyfriend’s flat after sleeping here and there for a few days
He’d cuddle me and say you smell bad take a shower And I’d be so embarrassed
I feel like somebody’s watching me whenever I take a bath so I’d always take a shower it’s quicker
I’ve been through many rooms with many smells and many people
But I know for sure whenever I pass the streets where rich people live it smells like nothing else on the earth It smells like fabric softeners cookies and security
So now I’m obsessed good detergents
Takuya’s room smelled like baby soap, cigarettes and old books
Now Takuya is not here and whenever I want to make guys feel weirded out I ask if I smell bad
Do I smell bad Do I smell feral
(2022)